Wednesday, 16 November 2011

First Blog

So, this is my first ever blog, so I'll try to bring you up to date.  I'm Mel, and I've decided to start blogging because I've kind of reached a mid-first-half-of-your-life crisis.  I'm potentially quitting my university course, I've recently split up with my boyfriend of three years, last week I had food poisoning for the first time, and then on Thursday I turned 21. So yeah, hi!
My life has been pretty standard - happy childhood, lovely family, Christian upbringing, did really well at school and sixth form, have only had one boyfriend who I was with for three years, generally nothing very out of the ordinary.  But as I've got older, everything has become a bit less straightforward and now I actually have to start making some life choices that aren't handed to me on a plate.  I decided to go to university after college, and have spent the last two and a bit years studying architecture at the University of Bath.  However, I've realised that I may have made the wrong choice, because I really don't enjoy it and last year was really very unhappy.  I went on placement for 6 months in February in an architecture practice which I also didn't enjoy, and coming back this year I've finally decided that I really don't think this course is for me.  So, I am currently in the middle of making the terrifying decision of whether or not to stay and be unhappy for the next 18 months, or to leave and start another degree somewhere else and face the stigma of being a university drop out.  Or even more terrifying, leave and get a job.  But from what pretty much everybody has said to me, if you can get a degree, do, because it'll make life so much easier, so I'm pretty certain I'm going to go for the leave and start a new degree option.  Thankfully my parents will fully support me in whatever decision I make, so that makes it a lot easier.  As of yet, however, I'm not too sure what I want to study instead, or when I'm actually going to officially 'quit'.  I'm living with students so I don't want to quit and then just bum around every day while they all have to work, so I'll either finish this year, or try to find some volunteering work or anything slightly productive to fill my time.  Or blogging!  Anyway, it's all very scary and uncertain, so hopefully whatever decision I end up making I won't regret it.  We shall see anyway.
The whole relationship drama will have to wait for another day, as I've told the story far too many times this last month that I just want some time to stop thinking about it and start to get over it.
But, like I said, I've just turned 21, and a whole new world is opening up to me.  I'm single and soon to be an unemployed university drop-out, and you know what, I think it's about time I just throw everything up in the air and see where it lands.  I might find something amazing.  We shall see...